I fucking hate school so much. All what Im saying here refers to Polish education system cause you know, I was born here. And It's not just yapping of a teenager that school sucks. I would love to learn, to discover, but It's just done so bad. Ok, so this year I will be graduating from high school, which means I will be ending my education. I don't plan to go to a university, I don't feel like I could learn much there in things Im interested in, besides I can't afford it... The vice principal told my class that we HAVE TO prepare something for the ending ceremony of our school year. And then the spiral of shit started. I'm an introvert and on top of that are my mental issues, including my struggle when it comes to social interactions. My school knows about it from the beginning. As you can guess I don't have friends here and I wasn't really included when it came to talks about what we will prepare. They came up with idea of a show where in the background would be our photos from the last four years. (High school lasts 4 years here). And in addition there will be short clips of everyone answering these questions:
All of this plus some sort of performance in front off the entire school. 🫠My teacher knows that Im backed out and she asked me if I wanted to participate in it. Of course I said no but as you will see she forgot about it??? Also I honestly don't have any pictures of myself XD. I really hate looking at myself in photos so I very rarely show up on them. Only pics of me are the one when my dog sleeps on me.
Today as of writing it and probably publishing it they were recording these videos. I did not wanted to be on them and when I was asked by my class to make mine I told them no. It was during my lessons, I was with my polish teacher in one class and the rest was in other room recording it. Then they came to the polish classroom and told me to record that fucking video. One girl told me with sweet arrogance and pretense "Can't you talk normally?" (Btw she doesn't attend classes almost at all and she will probably won't be graduating.) I replied simply "fuck off" to her and they laughed for some reason? Haha funny I was being rude and he started to be rude against me hahahaha. Then when they got back to the other classroom I had a small talk about it with my polish teacher that witnessed it. She told me that It wasn't really nice to say that, I replied that yeah I know but I don't think she deserves my attention and any respect and that I was just straight forward with her. On next brake the principal took me to his office. He told me that "this is not the standard that this school represents". Then he asked me do I understand that. I said yes and that was it. Like nothing about why you said that or why you don't want to make that video. NOTHING. Of course I had to check the class journal and here she was :)
"[ME] used vulgarisms when speaking with the class' teacher and other students. His behavior is greatly unacceptable and does not fulfill our expectations that we set for our students. I've talked with the student about this communicating that he should think about this situation"
Sorry if my translation was bad. So he wrote here that I've used a slur towards my teacher which is not true. I just hate all this shit. They treat you like you are not a human, like a kid with no brain and that can't have it's own arguments and thoughts. And no I'm not sending them pictures or making a video. Fuck them.
09.04.2025