I think I'm quite fucked. Why? I have depression for at least five years now. Last summer my mental state got I think the worst in my entire life. Now I'm feeling way way better and my mental state got back to "normal" but I so fucking tired. Like exhausted all the damn time. No matter how much I will sleep and rest I just have zero energy to do anything. Im graduating this year and I have exams in may. And you know it would be nice to study to it? But when I want to start I just can't. And I'm worried that I won't make it. I'm fucked. Even now I'm so tired and I feel like I could sleep for days straight. Also It's hard to focus sometimes...
And yeah I'm going to a doctor, I have meds. Lately my visits to my psychiatrist unfortunately less frequent due to my financial situation. It's slowly getting better but it still sucks. I'm gonna try to go to a public doctor but idk how much time it will take. Also my doctor thinks I may be on the autism spectrum soooooo yeah. I mean that would explain a lot about me. But to get proper papers I'm gonna wait some time.
Damn these blogs got really depressing really quickly. I will try to make another one more optimistic. Sorry :/
12.04.2025